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My second attempt of a blog at blogspot: Under the covers. Go when you have the time. kthnxbye.

Ayah turns 51 today. I remember the age by remembering he is one year older than our country’s independence. (dont ask, I have lousy memory otherwise.) Anyway, he probably wouldnt read this unless I asked him to which I probably wouldnt because other than the casual “I love you”s in the phone, he is not such a fan of public display of affection. Which I guess is because he was brought up that way - love was not expressed through words but more through actions of how you care for your family.

As a father, he has always been there. And he is the smartest person I know. Maybe a man of a few words, but when it counts, he gives the best advices and encouragements. This is the guy who wishes ‘all the best’ instead of ‘take care’ when saying goodbyes. He is not cold, he says “I would expect you to care for yourself but will you do your best at it?”.

He tries his best as a husband. Mom always asks us to find someone like my father for a partner. Always strong and together. Dependable in his best of times, sleepy in his worst. Handsome is an understatement.

As a teacher, he is tough but fair. Back in those mIRC days, my brother and I used to go undercover into my dad’s school’s chatroom. There were students who called him rude names that I cant mention here, but there were also students who admired him and his guts. He is respected by his colleagues and students and was not called Amitabh Bachan only for the beard he used to keep but also for his presence and confidence. In another school he was voted ‘best dressed’ by his students.

As a son-in-law, Opah is his fan. She says no one she knows is as hardworking as Ayah. He can always be counted on to get things done. And this does not only refer to the longkang outside her home or the number of times he goes to pasar.

They say, girls will grow up and marry someone like their father. I just come to realise if that might be the case, I will be having a tough time finding a good enough guy who could come par.

"Happiness comes in many things: in the company of good friends, in feeling u get when u make someone else’s dream comes true, or when the promise of hope renewed." 

Well in my case happiness came in the form of good music and a satisfying performance. Its been more than a week since I went to RHCP concert and I still cant help but smile when I talk about it. Because it was Pretty. Freaking. AWWWesome. :)))) <—-see, smiles.

To be honest Im not that big of a fan. I was not even a "small" fan before. But after listening through their latest album Stadium Arcadium, I was hooked, line and sinker. And it was worth every dollar I spent going I tell you. Though it bumped me a little that they didnt play some of my favourites from the album like Animal Bar, Desecration Smile and the new single Hump de Bump. I read somewhere that they performed Hump de Bump the next day during the second concert but omitted their old hits: Californiacation, Suck My Kiss and Scar Tissue which they did play in the concert I went. So I cant complain really. Its all gooood. Performance wise, they totally rock like theyre not a bunch of forty year old dudes!

Apart from the Chilis, simple things make me happy. A long walk in the cold, a hot coffee after, coupled with a great read and some awesome music (or ‘ear’gasm as Pink puts it)can easily make my day.

What makes you happy?

8th April - trip to Rainbow’s End. fun fun fun. walaupun rides die are mostly pondan. but since its the only theme park in NZ, layan jugak la. scream like mad on the power surge and Rainbow’s End weak attempt of a Solero Shot. shared a good laugh over this magician and a Michael Jackson impersonator. my cheek seriously ache the whole day from all that screaming and laughing and smiling. i mean its always fun when you can go back to your childhood (especially when you are turning 21 the next day), where even the simplest of things can amuse you.

9th April - the early morning was spent with the girls. pigging out while watching a horror movie and later, sex education 101. hahaha. wouldnt have it any other way. even the cupcakes and the unlighten candles are priceless!! xoxo.

10th April - mine and faliq’s birthday bash yg tak seberapa. the theme was Traffic Light. wear red if ure taken, yellow if its complicated and green if ure single and ready to mingle! again loads of fun fun fun. thanks banget to all who came and for the presents. special shoutout to the people who helped out: Kina (the party planner yg paling bersemangat skali), Shamaz, Yut, Emily, Marissa, Aimi, Shadha and Harliey. the party wouldnt have taken place without you guys. group huggggg! :))))

Author’s note: I am now 21. its high time to stop partying and focusing. literally. coz assignments blm start buat lg and theres only one week left. sigh. why cant we be forever young?

Okay so my detour to blogspot was a big bust. lol. I am officially the laziest of the laziest, the most lukewarm chicken shit you know. Resolution to maintain blog and not procrastinate konon. Lies.

Nothing of interest that I want to specifically talk about. So here is random stuff that happened since i last blogged.

• Returned back to Auckland (well obviously). It has all been good so far. havent had a breakdown, yet. And two of my cousins joined me this year. so yeah, it feels more and more like home this second time around.
• Autumn has officially started in the last couple of days. there is something comforting about walking through the rain and dried leaves. the greatest time to think and prolly my favourite season of all.
• My purse is thinning. cant say the same about my waist line though. I blame hormones, and the cold weather (all those thinking make me hungry).
• Second year archi is crayh-zee! dont understand half the thing i learn in class.
• Havent talked to him in ages. he’s not complaining. So whatever.
• My last year’s addiction to coffee has changed to sushi. all kina’s fault. validating again that the thinner the purse, the fatter the punggung. i dont care. gimme my maki-zushi and wasabi.
• Currently have an affixation for Chris Richardson of AI 6. cant remember the last time ive been star struck this badddd. oh wait, just last time with Channing Tatum. lol. Hurm, im seeing a pattern forming here. shaved head, scrubby chin, well built. love.
• Im lazy to chase anymore. cant the butterfly just come already?
• Not comforming to the norm is not "cool". neither is being typical "uncool". shut up.

Yup, that sums it up pretty much. And things to look forward to in the next couple of weeks: my 21st birthday (oh yeah), Malaysia carnival, rhcp. These events guarantee more blog entries in the near future. So bookmark this page. hahaha. Just kidding. Err, not really.

I am redirecting my blog to a new address: Honest-to-Goodness.

Feel free to visit and give ur two cents. It wud mean much if i know that someone is reading or just give a damn. (:

Happy new year everyone! May it be better than the last.

“Have u ever looked at a picture of urself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you…”

With this said, i dgn tader kejanye went through my pics and see how many strangers are accidentally caught in the background of my pics and make a collage of it. fs is so stupid that the image came as a link. so do check it out by clicking on it yeh. (:

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yes, i think the foggy weather and the fact that im always hungry and cold and lonely has caused me to be a bit stalker-ish myself lately. or maybe i was just inspired by ‘Derrick the McCreepy’ (im crossreferencing from oth and greys anatomy here if u dont get it. no? nvm then.)

for those who have my ym probably noticed that my status was “stop stalking me thank you” for a couple of times this week. for ppl hu r really close to me will probably know the reason behind it too (*winks*). however im not gonna delve into that. im just saying that the theme for me this week has been of that: stalking, being stalked, stalker, stalkee(??).

raise ur hand if u think myspace is so gay (and rempit too!). its filled with ppl with low self esteem who begs for attention n losers who actually feed them that attention. wtfish? so ok, i have myspace too but i only use it to listen to new bands ye! anyway, my point is, myspace (n other community sites of course, fs and facebook included) actually easily allows ppl to stalk u. i’ll even give a personal experience. once i was surfing for some nz bands on myspace i came across this guys page. hes cute, gay, and from his profile i knew he works at the same street as where i work. n the next day i saw this guy on the street. see how easy it is to stalk someone? without myspace i wouldnt even have noticed this dude who i probably passed had by everyday. our world has really become smaller with this kind of sites. if a psycho really wanted to stalk you, he can easily do it with the help of internet, i tell you!

“Have u ever looked at a picture of urself and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you…How many moments of other ppl’s lives have we been in? Were we a part of someone’s life when their dream come true? Or were we there when their dreams died? Just think. You can be a part of someone else’s lives and not even know it…”

(Authors note: Jod, im back to quoting lucas. the new season looks very promising dat u can expect more quotations after this. (:)

I could write a blog on current events, or news, or something else that has equal level of boredom as that. But I was once told to write what i know. So though i am far from being an expert (judging from my experience or lack of it), heres another blog on love.

I watched ‘Love Actually’ the other day (finally finished the whole movie after three times of watching it halfway because i got so bored). The message was that love is everywhere. But what got my attention was these two couples. One was which his gf cheated on him and the other one was where a husband was contemplating to cheat on his wife.

And it came to me that true love is actually a choice. Crushes, admiration, infatuation and fascination are just that. Its human’s nature to wander and wonder for something better than what we already have. And there will always be someone who are nicer, prettier, smarter, richer, sexier or funnier than our partner. But staying true and loyal to them no matter who comes along afterwards is a really a choice we make. We are the one who actually choose ‘always’ and ‘forever’.

Yesterday, a friend asked me a rhetorical question, "Whose side wud u be on if i left my bf for another guy?" And i immediately answer on ur bf’s side. Because thats just it. I dont believe in changing desicions (yes, i am stubborn that way). To me, if u cant commit to your choice, then dont make them.

There was an episode on The OC where kaitlin thought that marissa doesnt trust her instincts. She said to marissa about how when they were young, they always went to baskin robbin and marissa wud taste every flavour before making a desicion and once she did shed realized that she didnt like it and wud cry and their dad wud buy her another cone. While kaitlin would always get the same flavour (gold medal ribbon) everytime. And she said "I figured i loved it, why question it?"

There isnt any reason to leave ur loved ones actually.  Well, apart from ur significant other abusing u, then u really shud run like mad (after u beat em up back bad of coz). But other than that u really have no excuse. U made ur choice. So your partner is not perfect, accept it. Stay no matter what, no matter how. Sometimes "Mr/Miss Perfect" is not the same person as "Mr/Miss Right".

So, before I end this long blog which probably no one reads nway, heres a song by The Fray which pretty much sums up everything that i just said:

All at Once

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she’s in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won’t keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it’s all you’re running from,
Perfection will not come.

(man, i have to stop quoting from tv series, movies and songs. im sorry but thats all i have time to do nowadays. if i do have a chance to hold a book, it is to look at the pictures inside instead of reading em. darn.)

Basically, learn the skill of trusting ur instinct. Make a desicion and stick with it. Coz i’ll hate u if u dont.

Have u ever had those short,brief moments while u were doing sthg and at the back of ur mind u know ure making a mistake but u carry on doing what ure doing anyway only to find out later that u DID make a mistake and regret like crazy that u didnt stop at THAT moment while u had the chance??? like those moments when u knew that u didnt unenroll ur class properly, u knew sthg wrong is gonna happen but u just ignored those feelings. or the brief moment u felt that ure carrying too much plates than u can handle but u keep on carrying nway. and in the end u found out that u didnt drop the class after all and dropping the stack of plates. NOW all u can remember are those moments and WHAT IFs u had stop to think then.

shit, i hate those moments.

Went to The Fray’s gig last Monday. Their first overseas concert, my first experience. And it was sweet as! They performed a great live show. Sometimes i felt Isaac was singing especially for me. LOL. I tried to attach videos here on this blog but either friendster wont let me or i dont know how to. hehe. So check out the link below for the videos pink took during the gig. lenguh2 tangan la die. heh. Unfortunately the crowd’s fav (and mine too!) ‘Look After You’ ngn ‘All at Once’ taleh nk upload coz the file is too big n i dunno how to resize a .mov format file. If u know plis tell me n i’ll upload it later. sbb besttttt sgtttt. And plis note that the woman’s voice you heard singing is not me. At least I dont think. Hurm…hehe. Oh and I officially want a drummer bf after seeing Rob of The E.C opening for The Fray. Sgt teruja. haha.

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